Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Yearly inventory #3

Guess what today is?! It's the 20th anniversary of my 21st birthday!! I don't know if that sounds better or worse than saying I turned 41 today! Or if having a sister that is turning 50 in ten days makes me feel better that I'm still younger than her, or worse that I have a sister who is 50!! (But she does look DARN good for being a half century!) So for the past two years, I've done these yearly inventory things (here and here,) so I figured, why not keep it up?

What is your favorite color? Still green. Can't see that changing.
What is your favorite food? These days, bacon. Bacon and Chocolate. But not chocolate covered bacon, because that's just gross.
What is your favorite song? Give Me Your Eyes by Brandon Heath and To Bring You Back, by Paul Allen (I left the 99 to find the one/And you're the one/I walked a thousand miles in this desert sun/only to bring you back -- Good stuff.)
What is your most valued possession? Bible, cameras, pictures, a diamond pendant my mom gave me and a birthstone ring my sister gave me. It's the only bling I wear.
What is your greatest strength? Simple faith, ability to recognize my own responsibility for the drama in my life.
What is your greatest weakness? Food, laziness, I can be harsh and judgmental with people, even if I don't say it out loud, I think it sometimes.
What is your best skill? Does flaring my nostrils count?
What was your greatest mistake? This year? Failure to provide preventive maintenance. For several things.
What is your greatest fear? Dying while my children are young and leaving them orphans is always there at the top of the list.
What is your greatest accomplishment? At this stage, besides my kids, I'd say providing for them for the past 4 years. I know it's been because of God, but before I seriously doubted I'd ever be able to.
What is the one task you are least fond of doing? Yard work. Oh, and cleaning dog poo.
If your life ended today, what is the one thing everybody who knows you would say about you? Not sure I really wanna know!
What would you want them to say? She was a servant for the Lord.
Why wouldn't or couldn't they say what you want them to say? I'm sometimes not convinced I'm doing all I should be doing in the way of serving.

Where am I? Still a single mom in Arizona, doesn't look like that will be changing soon, and I'm not sure I'd want it to.
How did I get here? 99 Ford Escort. With 3 kids in tow. I'll never do that again. Seriously, I got here by making some bad choices, then accepting responsibility for them, then figuring out what about me caused me to make those choices in the first place, then working on that.
What was I trying to accomplish by making that decision? Security.
What do I really want? To move forward from where I am now.
How can I get to where I want to be from here? Keep trusting God, it's the key to everything. That never changes.

Things I don't like about me: I'm lazy, I hate housework, mess does not bother me, I can be pretty selfish, I am impatient, I am not outgoing and friendly enough, and I'm terrible about keeping in touch with people, and I'm not nearly as trusting as I used to be. These answers are the same as last year, I see no reason to change them. I'm also not the best at managing money. Yeah, those apply for this year too.

Things I like about me: I am giving and helpful, and I like to help others learn.

3 comments:

Debbie C. said...

Wow, that's a pretty big list, and I appreciate your honesty and transparency. Many can't do that. I may use it on my blog, (don't worry, I'll change the answers - ha!!) Hope you're doing well and BTW, HAPPY BIRTHDAY - Believe me, you're still young!

Lucie said...

Ahhhh! You too? HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Connie!

Janean said...

Greetings, my friend! I miss you terribly. You have been there for me when no one else understood and I hope I can do the same for you someday. God Bless and don't be such a stranger!